Monday, March 16, 2009

Burst Forth In Song

I have to tell you, ladies. I have no idea what to write about today. I am never at a loss for words, but today they fail me. Isn't that funny? My husband would think so! I'm sure I'll come up with a few words...;)

We had a great weekend. We really didn't do much. It's the strangest thing, though...I couldn't stop being giddy all weekend. I could just burst forth in song at any given moment. I won't, but I could. Have you ever felt that God had just given you a little extra dose of hallelujah? I mean, what in the world is going on here? Everywhere I turned this weekend, and still even today, I can see God at work. I see and hear all the tiny details that I had taken for granted before...that ray of light through the clouds, the birds in the air, my kids' sweet smiles, and my husband's laugh. I could go on and on. The joy in me wants to just run up and hug a complete stranger and say "God loves you!" All around me, new life is bursting with praise to my Father. I'm drawing nearer to my Savior and His peace surrounds me. My heart sings and my spirit soars! I'm walking on sunshine...really walking on Son-shine! And don't it feel good! (Sorry, there I go with a song!)

There have been times in my life, I wondered if I would ever see the sunshine again, figuratively speaking. I felt betrayed, alone, deserted...invisible. I really doubted God was hearing me. I remember even saying to Him, "Can You not see me, anymore? Does my heartache not matter?" I think back to those moments and marvel at the miracles God has worked in my life. He took those horrible times and truly worked them for my good. I know life can be so devastating and when we are going through a period of suffering, it is so hard to see God at work. The truth is He is always there. He always hears. He is always working for a greater outcome in our lives. I'd like to say that during my "hour" of pain, I turned to Him with a faithful heart. I wish I could say I was just like Job...but I wasn't. I was mad and I told Him so...I was tired of waiting for restoration. I was tired of hurting and so I lashed out. I ignored Him and I tried to fix things on my own (very bad idea, by the way). I dug myself a deeper, darker hole and climbed on in. I had so emptied my self that I didn't even recognize the person I had become. Still, God remembered me. He kept loving me, even when I couldn't love myself. He was still working in the background. He was still holding me. He was still my Father. And, when I realized I had no where to go, with a tear-stained face and a tattered, broken heart, I got on my knees and asked for forgiveness.

...He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us
from all unrighteousness. -- 1 John 1:9 NKJV

Yes, thank God for His compassion and mercy. Much needed grace continuously flows down and covers me...Thank you, Jesus! So, if you are going through a tough time in your life and you're tired of waiting...hold tight to Jesus. God worked a miracle in my life. It didn't come in the package I was expecting and it didn't come in my time frame, but praises to God, it came just in time! Trust God's heart, when you can't trace His hand. He is working for your good! You will see the Son-shine again in your life...take it from someone who's been there. When I think of where He brought me from and where I could have been, my heart sings His praises. How great is His compassion and mercy? The Son will shine again. He will rewrite your story, if you let Him. And, your heart will sing!

:) Becky


Runner Mom said...

Hey, Becky! This was awesome! I loved the part about a little dose of Hallelujah! You are so right! When we have those wondeful moments, we need to praise Him!

Thank you for sharing your sweet heart with us!!


Melanie Dorsey said...

What a beautiful attitude and heart of song!
I enjoyed reading it.

Barbara said...

What an awesome post for someone who had nothing to say.....One of my favorite sayings in hard times is the one you used... When you can't trace His Hand...Trust His is so, so true. Thank you for sharing this wonderful message..I am so glad I found your site and thanks for visiting mine. I'll be blessed.

Tracy said...

Wow, what a beautiful, joy-filled post! So glad I stopped by tonight. Thank you for becoming a "follower" to my blog. Always nice to meet a new friend and sister in Christ! = ) Looking forward to reading more of yours, as well.


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