Many of you may know that I gave up a great job to stay home with my children, Bailey is 8, and Zack is 4. Lots of people had a hard time grasping why I did it. It was not an easy decision by any way of thinking. I had a hard time giving up a good paying job and my independence. When God first dealt with me about staying home, I didn't understand why He would ask me to do that. After all, I had prayed for a good job and He answered my prayers with this one. Now, He was asking me to lay it down? My husband, David, and I prayed for more than six months, because I wanted to be sure that I understood what He wanted me to do. Lessons I Learned in the Dark was a great help to me during this time, as was my wonderful husband. Every day God spoke to me again and again...sometimes through friends and family, sometimes through His Word, and sometimes just through my daily prayer time with Him. I just could not get away from God, nor what He wanted me to do. Even though, I am enjoying my time with the kids immensely, I still don't understand why God asked me to give up my job. I may never know. Maybe it was to save my kids from some heartache, maybe to save me from something, or just maybe to help us have a better family life...I don't know. I just know I made the right decision. I realize now, how I was beginning to change while working. I just couldn't do it all. I am not, nor have I ever been, a supermom. My husband and children will attest to that. I was short-tempered, always in a hurry, sometimes bitter, often sarcastic, and was running in a vicious circle where there was so much to do, but I couldn't get it all done because I was always running.
Don't get me wrong. Life is not always easy now. Quitting my job didn't solve all my problems, but it did cause me to slow down. Slowing down allowed me to get in a place where I can hear God whisper to me, and helped me find my peace. Sometimes we get in such a rut. We try to keep up with the Joneses, try to get the perfect body, the perfect home, the perfect family, more money, new cars...the American dream. We get in such a state that we can't even hear God when He calls to us. I thank God for the opportunity to slow down and enjoy my children while they are children. I'm really enjoying the simpler life. Life is hard, but God is so good and so faithful. Wow!
"...Let us lay aside every weight and the sin which so easily ensnares us,
and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto
Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before
Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand
of the throne of God." -- Hebrews 12:1-2 NKJV